Don’t you just love how in the bible all the people that crowd around him… some with first hand knowledge of His power, but others simply hearing of Him, or others just there to disprove him? You know I stop and think which one of those that I would be, and I would have to immediately say that I would be there to find fault. It must be that crazy human-ness in me to do it, but it would be so hard to believe without seeing, and even with that it would be difficult to believe. In college in my World Religions class, I was inundated with other religions, and totally became disoriented… almost like I was drowning! I felt that I didn’t know why this Jesus that I had learned about my whole life was the right way, and everyone else was wrong. Satan did a doozy on me, and I really had a rough time of it. I even had to quit going to the class! I had a conference with my teacher, and I have to say that God was with me during that time because I have NEVER heard of what happened to me happen with anyone else… the teacher let me go only charging me with coming to the Final of the class and just sitting there the whole time. So I did that, and she passed me. God is with us all the time, and he sends us His Angels of protection even when we don’t know it or deserve it! I came to realize after 2 years of the continuous questioning in myself after that event, that Jesus was the right man for me! He died on the cross to save me, inconsequential me! …and He would have done it just for me alone. That really blows my mind… when I take the time to think about it. I look forward to S.O.A.P. ing because it will be a daily reminder of His unwavering love for little ol’ me! That blows my mind!!! So now when I read scriptures that tell of all the crowds of people surrounding Jesus, I know that I would be there because I love him, too! It’s amazing the difference when you realize the depth of love that someone has for you, and the lengths that they would go through to show/prove their love. It’s ALMOST unbelievable.
Lord of heaven and earth, I praise you for all that you are, all that you do, and all that is to come. I wait in eager anticipation to see what is next for me and those around me! You are AWE-some, and I marvel in utter amazement at your glory. In all my situations, you have complete control, and I am so unworthy, yet completely stoked that you would want to do that for me! I give it all over to you. I’m so glad that you are who you are… that you can be precious and wonderful and gentle, yet at the same time be a rock star for me! That’s just GREAT! I love you forever and forever… Amen.
